The motion and movements of swinging, whether watching my children on it or I for a nostalgic retreat, allows me to capture and live in a pure moment of joy, happiness, and childlike satisfaction. A brief moment on the swing swallows all my troubles and cares of this world. The breeze in my face, hair spinning behind me, and swooping to and fro….let this moment last forever.
This was a Sunday pool party connecting with my girlfriends. We are all busy moms and I was so thankful to take a break from house chores to participate in this gathering. While we had a chance to catch up on this year’s new blessings, our kids had a chance to connect as well!
March 6 Friends
Growing up, I’ve always admired my twin cousins who were always together and I remember playing with them and having so much fun. As a twin mommy, I am able to see these two interact with each other in a lot of positive ways. Here is Malino practicing her braiding while Hulali is playing a computer game. They are very close in this picture as if they were still in my womb. They do have their moments of fighting and disagreements but witnessing moments like these are so very precious to me. I am thankful that I was able to capture this moment and they were not distracted by the click and flash of my camera.
Love and Blessings~
March 3 Where I Am
I am at a place in my life where I’ve accepted who I am as a mother of four and a wife to my best friend. I have many a dreams to uncover and fulfill but my ultimate goal is to take care of this dream that already came true for me.
From a very young age and being a part of a dysfunctional family, I asked for mercy and hoped for a family like the ones I saw on TV like Growing Pains, Family Ties, and The Cosby Show. I was oblivious to a higher power but noticed the Jesus tapestries and cross on the walls of my childhood home and even had a short season of Religious Education in elementary school. It was like I kept wishing on a star or sometimes Santa Claus came into mind! But I was in need of a Savior whom I succumbed to in the perilous postpartum battle after the birth of the twins.
My dream came true when I had my first child and I married my husband. That was the start of my family. Five years later we had a son and five years later we had twin girls who are pictured above. Now it took me a while to realize that I was granted this as I let the hardships of marriage and motherhood get to me. There was an enlightening feeling when I finally realized that this family that I was entrusted to was in fact my prayer being answered in my moments of despair as a young child.
Now it does sound like a fairy tale that I just made up but it is far from it when life is real and circumstances pop out out of nowhere. My husband and I bicker and we disagree. I sometimes yell at my children when the message that I am trying to get across isn’t heard clear from the same people who are able to hear a chip bag open from another room and my impatience can get the best of me like a whiny 2 year old waiting to be fed. Sometimes I feel the need to let everyone in my house know how I truly feel during our morning rush to school, dinner dilemmas, or unfinished chores.
Doesn’t sound pretty but it is all worth it as I take a moment to notice how quickly my teenager has grown as she is now physically looking eye to eye to me and my preteen son’s pants are ‘high waters’ (pidgeon slang for pants that are too small that it exposes the ankles). I have conquered the first five years with the twins in which the first 3 years was almost unbearable and driving me to the point of insanity. As my husband and I approach our 16th year of marriage and 19th year together, I can only express gratitude for meeting this wonderful fellow and through the years we have learned a lot about each other and, believe it or not, even after so many years, we learn new things about each other. Sometimes it can be scary or surprising as time changes us both but that is something that married couples must be open to.
So where I am now is a good place. I am thankful that I have overcome the worse. Now I observe and I see and I take advantage of the moments and time where it is possible to pick flowers, to smell the roses, to appreciate this place where I call home, to take each breath with gratitude, to wake up in awe of the rising sun, to marvel at the blessings of a passing storm. All my gratitude and praise I give to my Savior: Jesus Christ. He was with me all along even when I didn’t know of Him. I thank God for each and every moment that I am given. This is where I am.
“I am with you wherever, where you go is where I am.”-Matthew West’s ‘More’
Love and Blessings~
March 2: Look Down
My 6 year old is looking up at me. This picture was taken from the top of the stairs outside of our front door. Urban and Casey were getting ready for a rubbish dump run and the girls were jumping rope. With camera in the palm of my hands, I stopped her and said, “Hey look up!”
I love looking down at the girls when I get knee hugs and I’m thankful that God chose me to be their mom and that they have someone to look up to. Right now, I look eye to eye with my teenager and my preteen son is getting there. They grow up soooo fast! And I love each and every one of them…
Love and Blessings on this beautiful rainy Sunday,
There is a different feeling in me this time around on New Years Eve. I am usually anxious and rushing around trying to get things done and organized before tomorrow. Or before 12am. But there is none of that…it is a feeling of peace. Is this the peace that I’ve longed for and prayed for? I have no unsettling or uncertain feelings. Is it because the bills are finally being paid off and I’m finally getting my finances organized? That’s still in the works. Is my laundry all caught up? No. The laundry is as constant as Lily’s shedding fur finding the corners and edges of the hallway. Did I go to the rubbish dump today? No. I can do that on Thursday.
My worries and priorities constantly change every year. Healing is evident as we make changes and let go of past hurts and sorrows. Forgiveness is the key to letting go. If forgiveness is not made in the heart, then all sorts of ungodly traits can take root and become overgrown, which in turn may block the view of obvious blessings from nature, from the people that are in my life, or from unexpected moments and encounters. I guess I’ve learned to accept the good and the bad with a grace that I can’t really explain. I refuse to be moved by things that attempt to take root in my heart in an unhealthy way. Let not my thoughts be entertained by self pity and wasteful drama. My overly dramatic traits have taken the back seat as I reflect on why my heart feels so calm and collected at the moment. As I write this, I am on my bed and the twins are using the back board as a jungle gym singing Lorde’s Royal. I just had to put in a slight glare as Hulali’s heels whap at the small of my lower back. Am I numb? Or am I well rested from being on Christmas vacation? No. No. Am I aging? Yes. Gracefully? Hopefully lol.
I’ve seen my children change and mature in ways that made my heart skip and sink at the same time. I’m so happy that they are growing and achieving milestones but at the same time I am sad that time has no patience for any human being.
The people I’ve known and the people I’ve just met do add flavor to my life. How can I learn new things when I’m around the same kind of people? Each person in my life has contributed to who I am today whether it was a good or a bad encounter. We can learn from each other in many different ways. And yet in some way, it can totally change my direction to my future.
My happiness thrives on the many unexpected moments that I encounter every single day. I love those moments. I love the moments that God has intricately planned for me that all I can really say is nothing but, “Thank You Lord.” Or “God, I love you.” Or “Praise God!” Or even: “Forgive me Lord.” Or “Lord help meeee!” God uses each and every moment of my life to seek Him and to use His grace in it. He doesn’t even need any words. God wants me to be in constant awe of Him.
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things have passed away.”
He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write these down for these words are trustworthy and true.”
As each year brings new joys and sorrows, my heart shall be set on God’s promises. In everything that we encounter, God has the power to make everything new. Love every moment you have with each person. If you look for good things, you’ll find it. If you look for bad things, you’ll probably find that too. It’s a person’s choice to choose which one to magnify. Enjoy the time given to you with each person. You never know when it’s someone’s last hour and you never know when someone’s gonna change. You just don’t know.
Time with people continues to be important to me. People I know, people in my family, and people whom I meet through people I know. I guess I’m a people person. But as much as I am a people person, my alone time is just as important to me as well. Achieving balance continues to be something I want to achieve as well. I’m NOT even gonna label that as my New Years Resolution!!! But it is something I long to obtain.
Here’s to a new year. Aloha 2013. Thank you for being good to me. Thank you Lord for the memories. Welcome 2014!!!
Love and Blessings always…
December Memories 2013
Behind the Scenes at the Craft Fair
Lily and Me
Happy 27th Cassie!!!
Happy 83rd to My Aunty
Taking a Break at the Playground
Hula Ministry Christmas Party
Mehana’s Soccer Games Rain or Shine
Antipasto with the Coleman’s
My How Urban Has Grown!
Good Times with the Kloningers
Cleaning Up For the New Year-Rainy Town
For me, October is usually a month that doesn’t stick around. With both my birthday and the twins’ birthday, fall intercession, the end of season island and state-wide championships for high school cross country, Halloween, wrapping up the twins’ U6 soccer season, from driving to and from Waimea for HYSA soccer games and kicking into high school soccer tryouts, and of course, the anticipation of the holiday season right around the corner…..it takes much more effort to find the time to relax and slow down.
Once Halloween was over, I had a bit of an emptiness in me and I really needed to shift my focus and look forward to the joy of entering the next season. I’m sure that I can rely on God’s promises to keep me from feeling lousy and empty. Here is an encouraging scripture that I came across on the K-LOVE Morning Show Facebook page:
“The Lord will continually guide you giving you water when you are dry and restoring your strength.”-Isaiah 58:11
Every season is beautiful in its own ways and great moments come to an end much like how a water-main is suddenly shut off. Sometimes, it’s hard to be still when it’s quiet all of a sudden or when I’m really busy and then I’m not busy anymore. But I am able to accept the end of great moments when God shows up in a shining sunrise, an encouraging friend, an upbeat song, a good read, or even from a heartfelt ‘I love you’ whispered through little puckered lips wanting to be kissed. When I open up the bible, the word of God provides nourishment and strength which allows me to stop expecting more than what I already have.
“Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”-John 4:13,14
How foolish of me to be thirsting for more than I already can bare. I must respect this time to relax and enjoy the little moments that God has so blessed me with. It’s a peaceful and quiet place that blares and speaks volumes of love, warmth, security, and gratefulness.
November. Thanksgiving. What is a more better time to be grateful? It is now, today, and everyday. Being thankful is not reserved for Thanksgiving Day. It is something to be every single day of the year.
Here are some mini and big moments from mid October to the beginning of November:
An Amazing Tasteful Broke da Mouth Dinner with the Stevens at the new Full Moon Cafe
2013 BIIF Cross Country at Kamehameha School
The New Saddle Road
Kaua’i STATES Cross Country 2013 at Island School
Mini Shopping Fix at Kukui Grove Center
A Hui Hou Kaua’i!
Sunday Loco Moco Breakfast Service with my Hula Sisters
Halloween at the Mizuba’s
Black and White Night 2013
AYSO End of Fall Season 2013
Pink Barbie Princesses
Mehana’s After Practice Sunset